Screw It

I gave up hope on even continuing something which i cant seem to get anywhere. Art .

My inspiration, motivation, lost.

I can't seem to hold the pencil like i used to anymore. And i can't seem to continue CG-ing with that effort i have anymore.

These few days, i was struggling, to get back the effort and everything i used to have, but some 'thing' switched my faith 'off'.

I'm not productive anymore, I dont have that strength anymore.

I should just go to my corner and rot.

Whatever i draw nowadays, doesn't have those feelings in it, there's still so many ideas i would like to visualize by drawing, but, no. I can't get anywhere after my pencil touched the paper.

The fire in me, is dead. I can't seem to regain it. There's too many obstacles in my head.

School was in the way, Art block was in the way, too many great people was in the way, i couldn't take it, so i gave up.

I still have the urge and motivation to draw, but when i picked up a pencil and started doodling, crap came, and hell, i dont care anymore.

I might still draw, but who knows, that part of me might get shot and die and no one will care.

Maybe i should become a band guitarist when i grow up, like Rai C:

P/S : I still take commissions, so commission me if you want, i'm not gonna force anyone. Cos', i don't care, and yes i've became quite emo and depressed recently C:

P/S/S : Screw it, this urge of me wanting to draw won't go away D: i think i prolly might want to draw again due to this orz *dies*