This might be one of my long posts, LOL. Maybe longer who knows. XD;;
Be open when you guys read, i do not plan to cause any misunderstandings nor am i trying to be offensive to anyone who reads on. :'D
Because this is my own view of what i'm about to write, and i write only facts.
Recently, a little war started with misunderstandings and stubborness between my friends, it kinda caused dissapointment on me.
Both parties are wrong i suppose, one just assume stuffs too much, another one was just stubborn. Read on and see who's wrong. 8D
Well, i cant blame them, it's their characteristics anyway( no offence! XD ). XD;;
To the one who assumes too much,
Well, i cant say much about you, huh. Of course you've been my best friend for 7 years(?). But there are pros and cons about you. Don't misunderstand! And dont get offended! I just needed to voice out a lil' about you, that's all, no harm done. :'D
The cons about you.
First off, well, you've been assuming about things too much lately and i cant blame you, it's your nature maybe, try and fix this. XD;;
Dont blame the other party that he's/she's being arrogant, you are too.
Dont blame the other party that he's/she's stubborn, because you're just the same.
Secondly, you spread secrets even if you were told not to spread about it, not all but some maybe, i dont study in your school nor in the same class with you like i used to anymore, so i'm not sure about that. XD;;
You weren't considerate in some point, what were you inconsiderate about, do some brainstorming about it, it aint hard. XD;;
You dont really care about people around you excluding Rika.
Next, you're rude sometimes, please take note, well maybe not rude in front of me( sometimes ) nor Rika, but still, who were you rude to, you should know. XD;;
Saying that it's not your fault in this matter and stuff and you do not want or plan to settle it, it sounds more like you're running away from reality by giving excuses that you made plans.
You lied to me, when you said you've gone to sleep and pretended to be your brother and acted like him by asking me unlogical questions that the answers were already there!
You lied when you told the both of us that you'll settle this matter some other time, despite the fact you just ran off going tuition. You never did want to settle this just after we had the conversation.
Lastly, you werent loyal much, to Rika yes, i truly understand, but what about the other party? Were you treating the other party the same way as you treat Rika?
You are unmatured to face and admit most of the problems, you acted like a child.
You gave alot of excuses, a tonnes of them, despite they were actually facts, but i still dislike the way you gave just a lil too much of excuses.
You change some certain topics in an instant. When we're talking about 'A' and in an instant you'll be talking about 'B'.
I got rather dissapointed for the fact that you gave up on being friends with the other party.
There are still Cons about you, but i shall not type it, ask the people around you, what do they think about your recent character, this time try asking a different person rather than asking the same old people you told me, who knows you might end up having a different answer. C;
Something to enlighten you up with some pros about you. :'D
First off, you're a great friend, despite the fights we've went through. :'D
You asked for advices from me sometimes, thank you, because i like it when people asks me for advices sometimes despite the fact i suck at helping, but i'm still a good listener. :'D
You listen to my advices and you apologized, i thank you for that and im very proud of you for doing so. :'D
But you didnt stay strong just a lil longer and waited for the results, instead you jumped onto conclusions( this is a con. *shot* ). XD;;
You're a strong fighter, you still had passion in something even if you were forbidden to go for it, it's not very good, but i still support you and i'm proud of you at the same time, keep doing what you like( not the Cons ), dont get stomped down, just dont overdo it. :'D
You took care of Rika for me when i'm not around, i'm happy and i thank you. :'D
You're a supportive friend, you supported me in what i wanted to do, and you were one of the friends who
You cared for me the other time when i was about to die from that allergy, despite the fact you did not call me, but i had to call you and tell you about it instead. XD;;
Overall, you're just as a great friend for being with me for almost 7 years, you're just unique in your own way, keep the pros, not the cons. :'D
Just keep in mind, i have no intentions of harming you nor cause misunderstandings. XD
Now, to the one who's just stubborn. :'D
We've been friends before during primary, we became friends during DayCare was it? When we were only 7 years old. XD;;
Except we never really talked to each other much during primary like what we're doing now. :'D
Your Cons?
Lol, i'm gonna describe your Cons in a funny way, because your cons are just funny, LOL.
You're stubborn, yes you are, LOL. And yes, i know you know you're stubborn, it your nature now amiright? XD;;
You dont show mercy in certain things, terrifying yes, LOL.
You tease people in a way that people could sometimes get it wrong, and could get end up getting hurt, for example like myself *shot*. LOL.
You're a bully sometimes, i still remember the time you gave me some awful nicknames during primary and i end up crying in class. :C
You're an unforgiving person sometimes( a sign of stubborness *sigh ).
You're unsatisfied with the other party's apology, but i can understand that, despite the fact that the other party used a piece of paper and wrote a really small apology on the corner.
Not an appropriate apology i see. XD;;
But about the second apology, the other party said sorry to you, but you gave a lifeless answer, i can understand that too, it's not easy to face a sudden apology. XD;;
So be prepared in life, you'll never know what obstacles will be coming towards you. :'D
Hmm, what cons do you have exactly? Since we started being real friends during 13, i cant really think of much cons about you. D:
Onto the pros then. :'D
You're a kind person, you helped people out and you comforted them when they're in despair. :'D
You prank people, but it's a good thing, people need laughs in their life to enlighten themselves up, but just dont overdo it by scaring people with that scary ghost thingy(._.). :'D
You supported me and helped me out between which career i'm supposed to do in the future. :'D
You're a great writer, and you made a touching poem in your recent post, i love it. ;A;
You're straightforward, but it's a good thing depends on the situation, you're not afraid to voice out the whole truth to make things really clear for people to understand.
I still dont get why the other party is just being stubborn and closing his/her ears with both her hands with this current matter when this party is trying to make things clear and trying to get this thing settled.
A big teddy bear you are. :'D *shot*
I got teased alot by you but it wasn't hurtful though, it gave me this 'good' feeling but i'm not sure how to describe it. orz;;
You listen to my advices sometimes, i thank you for that. :'D
Overall, despite that we've only been true friends for just only 4 years, i can say you're a great friend too, you helped me through some obstacles sometimes. :'D
Okay.
Pros and Cons are over.
Both of you had been great friends, really good indeed that words are unable to describe it.
Just keep in mind, that i love you guys. :'D
And to the one who assumes just too much, for the last time, dont assume, and this is what i think for your current character. Maybe some other people you asked couldn't see the real you nor would they want to hurt your heart, but, this is what i think of you. :'D
I didnt want to hurt you, so i did not say a word for the things you've done wrong, and i thought you would gradually realize what you've been doing, but maybe i was wrong. So i wrote pros and cons about you, giving you hints about what you've recently done wrong.
If i was the other party i would feel the same thing as you wrote a small apology on a piece of paper. Apologies need to be spoken sometimes, it'll be the only way to see how the other party reacts. And then, wait for their forgiveness, but you were impatient, you couldn't wait so you said you were tired of this and assume everything again.
You're not facing and settling this problem like an adult, you're running away from the problem like a coward. And giving excuses, 'Oh there's dinner tonight so i cant settle this.' or 'Oh im going out with my mom to shop tomorrow.'.
These are all just the same lame excuses that you always give. There's always something going on when we ask you out.
Realize your mistake, dont give me excuses like, ' Why dont you ask the other party? I cant remember everything all by myself now can i? I have many things to remember you know.'
That is just BS. Totally bull. What things are you to remember that was so important when you cant even remember something as simple as this, well maybe not that simple, but still, it isn't hard to remember. You dont even plan to remember what you've done wrong, it gave a great impact to the other party. Maybe you dont even realize it. And you need people to point out what were your mistakes.
What things was it that was so important that you couldn't even remember something as simple as this? Bishies? Anime? Cosplay costumes? Are all this alot more important than friendship?
And what was 'I do not want to ruin our friendship.'?
You dont want to ruin ours? What about the both of you? I'm helping you to settle this, and you tried to run away from it again. By saying that was your last line before you sleep, despite the fact that was an entire lie.
You decide yourself, whether you've done wrong or not.
I do not care if you want to remember what mistakes you've done. Because i'll end up having that same lame excuses you always give.
And once again, i'm not harming you, this is the truth. I do not want any misunderstandings, if there's anything you misunderstand, ask me, DONT assume.
And to the one who's just so stubborn, yes, you've been quite unforgiving, but it's understandable. And yes you've been complaining quite alot. But all those were understandable. You had your reasons so everything was understandable, you made the story clear enough for me to understand. So i have nothing to say about you in the current situation.
To the one who assumes too much, I'm not playing the 'fair game'. Because the other party told me the whole story clearly that was enough to make me understand. But you couldn't even tell me what was really going on. You told me fragments by fragments, but the other party gave me a whole cake!
You told other people who werent related to this matter the same thing! Fragments! But why not a whole? Why couldnt you have told them the whole thing? Because you did not want to admit you were wrong. I admit, you did admit that you were wrong, but that was only a single admit for all of the things you've done wrong. What about the rest? You're leaving them behind? Having people wounded in their hearts?
I'm saying this for your own good, i do not want to have my friends going on another world war, not talking to each other and stuff.
And on the phone when i called you to settle the matter, you talked in a tone that i seriously got pissed. You acted as if nothing happened. And you said it with a happy tone with a seriously childish voice.
'No, i do not want to settle the matter with the other party anymore.'
In a SERIOUSLY childish voice. I thought when i called you, you would give an voice i was expecting, but you gave me a SERIOUSLY childish voice. It got me real pissed when you said it with a happy tone and acted like NOTHING has ever happened.
If you must know, you had wounded me as well, with so much of dissapointment.
Lol, even after all this rambling, when we're gonna meet in real life, i'm still gonna say hi, and act like the usual me. Because it's my nature, i dont plan on ruining one's day with my sorrowness and despair.
Im not gonna be arrogant here, but, I grew out to be a caring and understanding character rather than my old arrogant self. Then what about you? What have you grown out?
Think about it.
And remember, I Love You Guys.
I love you guys so much. I want to have fun and being able to laugh with you guys together. I want to hear both of your laughters. I want those memories back. The really good ones.
It might be cheesy, but it's the truth.
"Get that in your thick skull."
"Good luck with that girl."
" What do you think of her?"
"How come someone who doesn't like Anime come and ruin my plan?"
"It's like I'm talking to a lifeless person."
"Well, too bad then."
"Thanks a lot."
"What more 'she' want from me?"
*Does ugh face behind my back.*
"I went with the wrong person."
All those things you said,
after hearing them,
I can't believe my own ears.
And the pain,
in my heart,
every word felt like a stab,
over and over again.
This is what I get,
for all these years of friendship.
I guess they don't mean
anything to you,
for a day's misunderstanding,
is traded for years of friendship.
You're constantly hurting
people around you,
not only me,
but many more.
But we don't say,
because we care,
care for your heart.
I call you my friend,
but deep down inside,
you already held an important place,
which existed once.
Reader, if you still think
I'm wrong,
go ahead and say,
for I don't care anymore.
But I have one last thing to say,
I'll always remember the times we had,
fun and laughter,
maybe you might remember,
maybe you don't.
Who am I to judge you,
I don't know,
cause' I don't know,
who am I to you.
A touching poem. Made by the stubborn one.
Do you really want to end this? To the one who just assumes too much.
Think twice. And think hard before making a decision.
Peace.
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