Be myself

I know i've said this a million times, but my Cheras friends sucks so much. =A=

Take this for example.

If i dont do my homework( which i usually dont ), they wont talk to you and they have this attitude where they wont want to be your friend anymore.

...Motherly much?

Well, i know this is what people should take example for as a friend, but to be honest, it sucks, like really. D:

And if i argue with a teacher( which i usually do if i dont like the teacher and the teacher is taking advantage of me as being the really-goody-two-shoes around, which only happens to one teacher i currently hate the most. ), same example as the above, they wont talk to you, they 'dont' even care. =A=

Whut else? Yeah, in Cheras, your friends take advantage of you?

Like really. =A=

They lends your money, like a few cents. And of course you'd be expecting for them to pay you back?

In Cheras, it's a different story, lol.

Not that im making a fuss, i just find it annoying?

Because they said the word 'lend', instead of 'spare'. So okay i LENT them, next thing they'll say,

'Like that also want to return ah? Fine la! Later pay you back la! Damn calculative.'

...Okay, because of that, i'm now afraid of my friends. =A=

And also because of that, i'm becoming more generous and is too afraid to say the word 'no'. OTL;;

As you can see here, im only complaining about my Cheras friends now because well, the major differences of last years friends and this years, is a total 'call for help' situation. And yes, i need to get out from this school, fast and quick.

Last year, my Cheras friends were more like my Subang friends? More laid back, not as OVER strict like the current one?

That's why i prefer my chinese friends in Cheras more than my current ones. So annoying and yet not a single topic to talk about. Because im the only otaku around them and it makes it weird to be around them, like awkwarddd.

When i was with my chinese friends, it's a whole different story, i can be myself, i can relax and not get tensed talking about stuff to them. But now it's like, a pack of mothers around me. Yes, pack, lol.

Everyday it's boys, boys and boys. When it comes to studying, the atmosphere around them is serious, it gets me so tensed. I just wish i wasn't stuck in this dreaded class with these people. It's not very comfortable.

And when you cant do something they'll go,

'Ala, you everytime also like that one la, cannot do this, cannot do that.'

If you guys know me well enough, i'm a sloth. I dont do my homework, i dont study( I need to change this attitude of mine. orz;; ). All i do is play, sleep, eat and potty-pooing.

And now i just wish Raya holidays were to be longer, or what's best, just after the final exam, i could just stay at home and sloth around the house. I dont want to see my Cheras friends, they annoy me and irritate me.

They said i annoy them and irritate them by not doing my homework and not studying. Huh, what joke, they annoy and irritate me too.

I just wanna be myself. Not what im unsatisfied of being with.

'It's hard to pretend to be someone normal, so i just be me!'

Great quote from a class T-shirt i saw from the seniors.

Although the fact i keep telling myself, they did it for my own good and such, but it always annoys me to be the one apologizing them about stuff like why i dont do my homework, it's really low and sickening of me, it's like, i owe them or something.

I dont care if i lose them, i didnt have friends in Cheras to start with.

...But seriously, i need to get started with that 7 moral essays, or my moral teacher would fry me, again. And if i dont do it, i could just go and slit my wrist.

My current Cheras friends, each one of them, has a boyfriend. Lol? So imagine the amount of girly topics i have to endure. =A=

And the amount of saliva i wasted on telling them something and being ignored at the same time or they would give this half smile and a half laugh and then start off with another topic? Yeah, now when i think about it, i've got a year more to endure this hell of bombarding girly topics? OTL;;

...You know what, maybe slitting my wrist ain't such a bad idea. *shot*

I mean yeah, people will come telling me, just ignore them, but you know, if i dont talk something that i want to talk about, i could just implode.

And yes, i rarely draw, it's because of them too. It's hard, like so hard. Everytime i draw they'll go,

'Dont draw already la, do your homework.'

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF-OH how i wish i could just end my life, or how i wish i could just stop school and go to work and earn money and use them on so many unimaginable things. =A=

Well, at least my last year chinese Cheras friends DOESNT DO THE THINGS I MENTIONED ABOVE. >8C

I really wish i could just hang out with them. D:

But now there's like no topic to talk about, i felt like crying everytime i try to talk to them, LOL. So awkward to find a random topic and to speak in chinese with them in my chinglish language. ;A;

...You know, i could actually go on ranting and ranting about my current Cheras friends, but it's best if i do not bore you guys with more of my ranting. 8D;;

Peace. :Dv


P/S: HELPPPUU. ;A;