Why?

GAH I CANT DO THIS, I CANT DO THAT, I MIGHT AS WELL BE DEAD FROM THAT ALLERGY OF MINE.

URGH

I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE, I SHOULDN'T BE ON THE NET TO LOOK AT SUPER PRO STUFF, THAT MADE ME SO DAMN ENVIOUS.

OH FORK, WHY CAN'T I JUST START WORKING ON SOMETHING DARN IT

I'M HOPELESS, USELESS

THE ARTS I DRAW, THEY'RE ALWAYS THE SAME, THEY DONT COME OUT LIKE WHAT I EXPECTED, DARN

MY DRAWINGS ARE THE MOST HIDEOUS PIECES IN THE WORLD, I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE, WHY DO I EVEN BEGIN DRAWING, FOR 4 YEARS I'VE BEEN DRAWING AND THEY'RE THE SAME, WHY CAN'T I BE LIKE THEM? WHY CAN'T I DRAW GOOD FOR FRIGGIN GOD SAKE'S?

URGH

WHY CAN'T I START WORKING ON A MANGA? WHY MUST I PROCRASTINATE? WHY CAN'T I JUST STOP BEING SUCH A FORKING SLACKER/PROCRASTINATER/LIAR?

WHY DID I SHIFT TO CHERAS? WHY CAN'T I JUST STAY IN SUBANG? NOW I HAVE TO STAY IN THIS SCHOOL WITH THAT SOUNDER, I WISH I DIDN'T SHIFT TO CHERAS, MY LIFE'S A LIVING HELL IF I STAY WITH THAT SOUNDER. IT'LL BE 9 MONTHS AND A YEAR FOR ME TO STAY IN THIS LIVING HELL

WHY CAN'T I STOP BEING SUCH A NERD/WEIRDO? PEOPLE ALL AROUND ME, CALLING ME WEIRDO, I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.

WHY CAN'T I MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH ANYMORE? PEOPLE GET OFFENDED/ANGRY/FRUSTRATED WITH WHATEVER I SAID.

WHAT IS THE BENEFIT FOR ME IF I DREW? WILL DRAWING TAKE ME TO MY GOAL THAT I'VE BEEN LONG AWAITING? WILL IT DO ME GOOD? I-I CAN'T DRAW LIKE I USED TO ANYMORE, IT'S SICKENING, I SEE SAD FACES WHENEVER MY DRAWINGS DISSAPOINTS THEM, I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO ACHIEVE ONE'S HAPPINESS.

I-I CANT SEEM TO FIND THE EFFORT I PUT RIGHT INTO THE PIECES I DREW. IT'S ALL CRAP.

WHY DONT I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO MAKE SOMEONE HAPPY? WHY CAN'T I HEAR LAUGHTER ANYMORE? THEY ALL SEEMED TO DISSAPPEAR AFTER I CAME.

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER LIVING? NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME, BECAUSE I'M A WEIRDO, A SLACKER, A LIAR, IM NOT OPTIMISTIC AS USUAL.

I DISSAPOINTED EVERYONE.

I SHOULD JUST ROT AND DIE WITH THAT DARN ALLERGY OF MINE, THE WORLD WONT END EVEN IF IM NOT AROUND.

P/S: will delete this post soon. needs to de-stress.