Why didn't I?

This will be the time, where you guys, especially my friends, can come up front at me, screen to screen, and say that you hate me.

I'm giving a darn good chance for you guys to say this to me.

Because i'm a jerk that's why. C:

Go ahead and comment everything about me.

Whether it's harsh, awful, just come all at me.

Comment in my post not my cbox, it'll cramp up that place.

And i know i dont deserved to be friend with.

I'm a jerk. A loser.

I dont have anyone to understand me anymore. Because i'm a jerk, always have been.

Haha, my friend's friend got that recent case of A(H1N1). I might get it too, you know.

Maybe when i get it, i should just shut up about feeling anything weird, that way i can die, like i've always wanted to.

Yes, i'm quite emo and frustrated now.

No one trusts me anymore.

Where is the bird nest when you need one? I need to be instant killed.

Mr. Grim Reaper, just take me away, i can't be trusted. I'm a jerk, a loser.

What happened? And why am i typing like this right now?

Because something happened. That person changed alot in a few weeks when i was talking to that person. I can feel total hatred and disappointment from that person.

I really dont care anymore, just let me die.

I realized, words are powerful weapons, careful when you use it.

Because who knows? Even the word 'hate' could kill a person. And the word 'love'? Do not use this as you may like, because you might end up hurting the other person and that person could get killed.

Haha, what am i talking about now, i'm just talking plain crap.

I can't believe myself, why didn't i just die on that day?

Why didn't I?

What the heck... why am i crying now.

Haha, I should've known from the start that i dont deserve to have friends, all i really wanted was someone to be there to comfort me, but i guess i cant have that...

Do you guys still treat me as a friend? I just want only that, even if it's fake, i just want only that. Even if you have the simplest idea of killing me, i dont care, i still want to be your friend.

Haha, I'm desperate now aren't I? Lol.

I'm not gonna force what you guys are gonna write in the comments. Write as freely as you wish.

Lol, and i bet, no one's gonna comment, because who would care to type on a useless persons blog.

Anyway, you may begin typing now, if you wish.

Peace.


P/S: Your words stung me real hard this time. Dont worry it aint your fault, i deserved it.