Better

Hi guys. 8D

Yeah i feel alot better. XD;;

I've been listening to alot of YUI songs, and reading the translations on most of her lyrics, and they're really meaningful, it's like YUI telling me to keep going on and she'll support me, LOL cheesy i know but it's true. 8D

YUI healed my soul. :D

I've been telling my problems to a foreign friend of mine and i feel better as she kept supporting me and advicing me what and not to do. 8D

Well, i cried alot last night, my eyes are still swollen since morning, LOL. But i think i might be able to forget them. And i saw this coming anyway. XD;;

They told me true friends should care each other and stick with each other. Well, i understand this statement, and it's true. But somewhat, they're boycotting me because i dont do my moral homework? They cant see that im doing them now though, lol.

Well i dont blame them, my moral teacher's the one to be blamed, she planned all this with my friends so i cant blame my friends. XD;;. Though i dont like the way my friends sms-ed me last night, i wrote nothing but decent words, and she had to use the word 'bloody' in it. Well, what can i say, she's easily short-tempered? XD;;

I am to forget about this people, even though they still say they're my friends, but they dont care a shit on what i do, 'true' friends they are. XD;;

When they fought with me last night, they're like, Mother Theressa, LOL. Oh so pure, oh so good and telling me about this and that, that this is for my own good, 2 words, MY FOOT.

But I also said things i shouldnt last night, i was motivated by another friend of mine though, LOL. She told me,

'She keeps showing you who's boss, now it's your turn to show who's boss.'

Motivating words no? XD;;

And so i've been boycotted and scolded by them, so? Is this the end of the world? No.

Because i realized, if i were to make up with them, i would be sad again later on, for sure i know it. So i decided, maybe it's time to stop being friends with them, even though i hanged out with them for a long time, but im always treated the wrong way. I get all tensed when i sit beside them, im not able to express my true self, it sucks really.

I cried so much last night with mixed feelings, thinking maybe what i did was wrong, and the memories we spent the laughter we had, but then i think again, there were also times i was treated the wrong way, always getting scolded for doing something they dont like, always criticized by them for doing something they dont like.

Well, these are KL people, what more can i do?

So now, if i were to make up with them, i dont think i'd be as close with them as usual, because the 'me' they know, has already died. They killed it.

And yes, about the moral teacher, i might do something about it. Something shocking? Surprising? We'll never know, lol. Because of her, the 'me' died. And because of this, she'll regret messing with me. Just because i couldnt finish the moral essays on time, she has to do something like this. I curse her upcoming generations to fail SPM berturut-turut for 7 years, LOL. Line taken by my BM tuition teacher. XD;;

Hmm, i dont think i want to go to school anymore, yes im scared, scared to face them, after the fight we had, i dont want to know what faces they'll show me when i enter school, i dont want to hear the backstabbing they're gonna throw at me. So, i didnt go to school today, and so will tomorrow, because im sick, LOL. Gotcha didnt i? XD;;

But yeah, i just wish school would end real fast. It's like a living hell for me now. XD;;

I just hope that moral teacher doesnt teach me for another year next year, or it'll be just suicide, LOL.

Well, that's about it, i got another 'day-off' tomorrow, so i'm gonna enjoy it while i can. 8Db

Peace. 8Dv


P/S: I'm well, still sad, but i have this rather mixed feelings of happy, lonely, furious, and glad? LOL.